Leng Jin Yu looked at his husband, feeling a little guilty for making such a big deal out of it. “Is it asking too much? Or would you be … alright with this? I know it would be more dangerous for you.”
If they settled down at Xin Lan’s place — which he would certainly allow — they would be far outside of the reach of anyone else. It would be perfect. But it wasn’t what he wanted. In this case, he might indeed be too selfish.
Jinde gave a hum, not quite sure what to say. This was the reason why he had wanted to talk about things. “I see where you’re coming from. And to be honest, I think that there is some merit to this thought. It would be nice to be able to just be a big family. To have the two of us and our little one and Qiu Ling and his lover close by. Who knows? They might even have a child as well sometime soon. Well, that is, after the Son of Heaven returns.
“In any case, that is something that I could very well imagine. I would like that. Also, while we could stay in Xin Lan’s place and get rid of a lot of dangers that way because it is so far out of reach and nobody would dare to set foot there uninvited that also means that we would be all alone with us. And while I really enjoy your company and want to focus on raising this child, I think we’ve been alone enough. All those years in the special dimension of the Yun Zou Sect without anyone around at first, then the time that I needed to heal when only you were at my side, I … I don’t know if I can take that again.”
Leng Jin Yu squeezed his hand, hoping that it would make him feel a little better. “Well, I can understand that as well. If you think that it is worth it, then I would really like to settle down in the capital. We should maybe just talk it through with Qiu Ling first.”
Jinde nodded. “Yes, we should. And yes, I also think that it would be the perfect place. I have so many memories there …” He trailed off and then turned to his husband, his brows furrowing. “I tend to forget that you do as well. In any case, it’s not the same place anymore but I think that returning there to finally have a family would give me at least some peace of mind, you know?”
Leng Jin Yu nodded. “I know exactly what you mean. It is like … While we can’t erase the past, we can make happier memories than the ones we left behind. It’s a new beginning but at the same time, it is also a fitting end to what was before. It is a way to make things better.”
“Exactly! That is what I would like to see. But you are indeed right that it will be dangerous. So this requires some planning. I’m not sure how exactly this is going to work out. But there should be ways to go about it. One part of it will certainly be that I need to hide my appearance again. That won’t be as easy as it is right now in the mortal realm.”
“Yes, that’s true. And I’m afraid that your appearance is still too unique to just hand-wave it. People would notice if you walk out on the streets.”
“Precisely. From what Xin Lan told me, I set some kind of beauty standard after my death. With my looks, I’m afraid that there would be quite a bit of trouble. So we would need a good explanation and I’m not sure where to get one. At the same time, I also don’t want to put the whole strain on Qiu Ling. I think he has more than enough to do with the Son of Heaven’s reincarnation. The fact that he actually came to ask us for help shows that.”
Leng Jin Yu nodded. Right. If not because he couldn’t think of anyone else to ask, then he wouldn’t have contacted them. That was just the way it was. “Then how about those advisers of his? An Bai and Xiang Yong. Since they already know, it wouldn’t be a problem to talk it through with them. Also, if you are exposed to another person or two, it wouldn’t be that bad. That in itself isn’t any kind of proof for Qiu Ling’s heritage.”
“No, that’s not the case. But you know how the dragons are in regard to their kings. I was declared dead, not abdicated. I don’t want to open that can of worms. I’m happy not being king. And Qiu Ling needs the position. So until he has married the Son of Heaven at the very least, we can’t be careful enough with this. But yes, I think that An Bai and Xiang Yong should be good to ask. They have a vested interest in keeping this matter on the down-low as well.”
Leng Jin Yu nodded but there was still the small problem of not quite knowing how to contact them. While they had a way to directly contact Qiu Ling, the same couldn’t be said for his advisers. Or at the very least … He glanced at his husband, more precisely at his necklace. “Xin Lan’s gift wouldn’t …?”
Jinde scoffed and then waved for him to follow him, leaving the city on the fastest way out. They found a spot by the sea and sat down on a boulder, making sure that nobody else was around before Jinde took it off. “This kind of thing, naturally, there’s something more to it if he gives it to me. Now, let’s get this over with. I want to see just how long we will have to wait to have that child of our own.”
Just thinking about it there was a faint smile on his lips. Yes, this child, he had really waited long enough for it. If he could, he really wanted to start right now but they weren’t ready yet. No, at the very least, they first needed to clear those obstacles from their way. Only then could they plan to actually have the child.