Needless to say, with the prospect of getting married once more and having a second wedding night as well, Jinde was immediately motivated. He got to his feet and pulled his husband up as well, trying to drag him out of the room.
Leng Jin Yu raised his brows, not quite sure what this was about. “You … What are you trying to do?”
Jinde turned back, looking just as confused. “What do you mean? Aren’t human customs really complicated? We’ll need a lot of help, right? We should go and tell everyone about it so it can be set up fast.”
Leng Jin Yu smiled wryly. “Aren’t you hurrying a bit too much?”
Jinde furrowed his brows and let go of his hand. “What are you talking about? Is there ever a moment when you can get married to your husband too early?”
Leng Jin Yu’s smile got even more strained. “That’s not it. It’s just … for a human wedding, you will have guests. As for the ones we would likely invite, I guess there won’t be many. And … today probably isn’t a good moment to invite at least two of them.”
Jinde tilted his head but then his expression froze. “You mean because Qiu Ling will still be worked up over Chun Yin’s short reappearance and … Xin Lan was just dumped by his fiance.” Right. He had almost forgotten about that.
Leng Jin Yu nodded with that same wry smile still hanging on his lips. His memories were very unhelpfully conjuring up a few instances of Jinde and Xin Lan being … quite a bit too close for his past life’s liking. And he couldn’t deny that he also felt a bit uncomfortable. It really was a different thing to be told that there had been something between those two and actually experiencing it.
Leng Jin Yu counted to ten in his head and then forcefully pushed the thought away. In any case, it didn’t matter. This was his husband and they even wanted to marry a second time. Why would he dwell on things from the past? Thus, he just got back to the topic at hand. “Yes, exactly that. It would be a bit … tone-deaf to tell them our happy news in this kind of situation. So I would suggest we take it at least a bit slower. I’m sure there are other things we can do in that time.”
Jinde smiled at that and wrapped his arms around Leng Jin Yu’s neck again. “Oh? What kind of things?”
Leng Jin Yu chuckled and pecked his lips. “Oh, not much. But for one, we can start to think about what kind of wedding you’d like. There are many customs that can be incorporated and we also need to decide who to invite. We could start preparing these things. Also … I remember talking about having a child after I have my memories back. Well, they’re back. What about the child now?”
Jinde had originally smiled when Leng Jin Yu brought up the customs and wanted to tease him further but as soon as the child was mentioned, that smile faded away.
Leng Jin Yu immediately realized that something was wrong. He hugged Jinde to his chest, his expression turning into one of concern. “What’s the matter?”
Jinde kept quiet for a moment but then forced himself to smile. “Ah, it’s …” He fell quiet and bit his lip. Most likely, he should tell him but he also couldn’t bring himself to do so. Thus, in the end, he just shook his head. “It’s nothing.”
“It doesn’t look like nothing.”
Jinde looked up and then sighed. “You mentioning a child just reminded me of the past. It’s probably because Chun Yin just … Well, it brought back a lot of memories for me too.”
Leng Jin Yu nodded slowly. “Seems like now, I was the one who was tone-deaf. Today wasn’t easy for you either.” Yes, even though Jinde was joking around and even a bit excited about their upcoming second wedding, it didn’t mean that this hadn’t hit him hard either. He had loved Chun Yin after all. And he had lost him. Twice now. Not to mention that he had probably also been reminded of how Chun Yin left him because of his child.
“No, it’s me. I … I shouldn’t suddenly be down because of it. It’s been a long time and I’ve managed to find you and marry you. Isn’t that great? It’s not like with Qiu Ling. He will only ever have Chun Yin as his father. Even with you in the picture, it’s not the same.”
Leng Jin Yu nodded. “Yes. I wonder what he’s doing …”
Jinde fell quiet, pondering for a moment. “Knowing him, he might want to be alone for a while. In any case, where else would he go? There aren’t many people who know about Chun Yin and even fewer that know about you as well. At most, there would be the God of War but I doubt Qiu Ling is close enough to talk to him about this matter. No, he doesn’t have another choice than to come to terms with this on his own.”
“What about Zhong Jing Yi though?” Leng Jin Yu hadn’t actually seen where Qiu Ling went since he had had a hard time getting out of the memories but he would have assumed that he would go to his lover for comfort. It seemed like the logical choice.
Jinde shook his head though. “No, that boy’s situation hits a little too close right now. Because just like you aren’t his real father, that Jing Yi isn’t his true lover. So this … likely brings up quite a few insecurities of his.”