OMF V7C481 I Thought I Would Lose You

Back in the Yun Zou Sect, Jinde glanced in the direction Qiu Ling had left in but finally decided not to do anything. He could imagine that he was feeling all kinds of things and known of them should be happy. This child … he would have to suffer once again. There was nothing he could do about that.

Instead, Jinde turned back and then just lunged forward, wrapping his arms around his husband’s shoulders, hugging him tightly. “Jin Yu.”

Leng Jin Yu’s eyelids fluttered and he finally opened his eyes, slowly raising his hands to hug Jinde back. That part of Chun Yin’s soul … it had already assimilated into his own. He had received those memories and it had indeed been as if he had lived that whole life. He couldn’t help but still feel a bit dizzy because of it. Especially when he remembered how, at the last moment, the soul reactivated and Chun Yin was given a few more hours to live.

He never would’ve thought that something like this was possible. Thinking about it actually scared him. He had thought that in the worst case, he would not be able to deal with what he saw. Maybe he would become insecure because he saw just how close Jinde and Chun Yin had actually been. But instead, he realized that if the part Chun Yin had bound to Jinde’s soul before had been any bigger, then maybe, he actually would have ceased to exist and Chun Yin would have returned. It really was his luck that that hadn’t happened.

He hugged Jinde tighter, trying to calm down his heart that was suddenly beating madly. “I thought I would lose you.”

Jinde grabbed his neck with his hands trembling slightly and pressed his cheek up against Leng Jin Yu’s, shaking his head. “You think I didn’t? You were suddenly gone. No matter what I expected before, it wasn’t this. Next time … Let’s never take such a risk again.”

Leng Jin Yu actually laughed. “Why? Are there any more souls bound to you? Or why do you think there’ll be a next time?”

Jinde laughed as well, relief flooding his body. “No, silly, of course not. Just that no matter what happens in the future, if it puts your life at risk, let’s not do it. No answer is worth losing my husband over it.”

Leng Jin Yu nodded and then pulled back, cupping Jinde’s cheeks. Looking into his eyes, he smiled faintly. “I’m back. Don’t worry. I’m really back. I won’t leave again no matter what.”

Jinde nodded and reached up, grabbing his wrist. “Thank you. I know … this wasn’t what you planned either. I was just too shocked at that moment. And you weren’t there so I couldn’t even turn to you for support.”

“I can imagine how hard that must have been. Anyway, you at least got your answers, didn’t you?” He wasn’t quite sure, to be honest. That meeting between Chun Yin and Jinde was actually a bit fuzzy in his memory. He very vividly remembered how the two of them had hugged and how Jinde’s voice had sounded a little choked when saying his farewell to him. However, the rest of the conversation … he was afraid that he was unable to remember it. It was the same with whatever had happened outside. He knew that he must’ve met Qiu Ling but not a single second of that had stayed in his mind.

In any case, he didn’t try to pry. He couldn’t help but be a bit little bit annoyed though that despite taking the risk, he didn’t know anything about what had happened, and obviously, his previous life’s self was a bit of an asshole for clearly showing him just how much he meant to Jinde while not giving him anything of substance. On the other hand, he could also understand it. In any case, this really was Chun Yin’s private matter. He would respect that last wish.

Jinde looked into his eyes, trying to figure out if Chun Yin had said the truth and Leng Jin Yu really wouldn’t remember that part. Seeing that he only seemed a little confused, it seemed that his past lover had actually done as he had said.

He almost heaved a sigh of relief and then motioned in the direction of their dimension. “Let’s go home. I can tell you what I found out. It isn’t much though.”

Leng Jin Yu raised his brows but then just took Jinde’s hand and followed him over. There really was no need to talk about this while standing here outside. It was better to be home and slowly talk about it. After all, the subject was a sensitive matter and they would likely feel more comfortable in their old walls.

He did have to say though when he returned to the room he couldn’t help but take a look at the place where the two of them had stood before and hugged. He smiled wryly and told himself that his soul’s predecessor had really done great work. Now, he was basically jealous of his dead self. Was there really a need to be like this?

He shook his head at himself and then went to sit down at the table, reaching over to take Jinde’s hand. “You don’t have to talk about this but if you want to, I’m here.”

Jinde smiled and came over, sitting down on his lap. “I do want to talk about it. In any case, there isn’t much to say.”

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